Thursday, 31 October 2013
Book Talk Topic: Lack of Inspiration
A Lack of Inspiration
Technically this won't be about books but about blogging, but I named my discussion posts Book Talk Topic... So yeah, just go with the flow!
Anyway, I wanted to talk about feeling inspirationless. Particularly because I'm feeling like that right now. Just like mood swings, I have 'inspiration swings'. Normally I read pretty quickly, and on top of that I can just come up with something (e.g. a discussion, something fun). Other times (like right now), I start to read slowly. It doesn't matter how good the book is, my reading just slows down. And I feel completely inspirationless. The plan was to do something with Halloween, because it's effing Halloween. But I couldn't think of anything, so I decided to do something just the week of Halloween. And then I decided to just post something on Halloween. Instead, you're getting this. Why? Because I couldn't think of anything.
During these periods I just sort of feel... empty. There's practically nothing I love more than reading. And blogging. I haven't been blogging for THAT long, but I really do love it. This community is amazing, even though I'm a socially awkward penguin. But during these slumps, I just don't read very much. It's usually at the start of winter: that's usually the time at which I sort of... sag. I get tired more easily and I just don't have the same energy I do during summer (which kind of sucks, seeing as my birthday is in the winter! And Christmas as well. I LOVE Christmas!). And blogging can start to feel like... well I don't want to say a chore. because it's not THAT bad. I just have no inspiration for posts, I have no reviews because all of a sudden I'm reading slowly, and I start to panic a little. I know you don't have to post every day (I don't even do that anyway), but a week? That's a bit too long for me. And the posts I do write... They seem bland and lackluster to me. (So if this is bland and lackluster, you know why!) My enthousiasm sometimes feels fake to me, even if I am eagerly awaiting something.
I'm not saying that this is because of blogging or this community or even because of all the drama. It's not. I love books, I love talking about about books, I love bookish people. But around this time of the year, I just don't have the energy to read a lot and write a dozen of posts and comment on every blog I follow. Even though I do want to do these things. So I want to thank everyone who still visits my blog and comments, even though around this time of the year I'm not the most sociable person, nor do I always comment back (although I aspire to). Thank you.
What about you? Do you ever feel like this? How did you fight it (if you did)?